Hampton trip...

So i just realized that i never even told you guys about what happened in Hampton! I'm not sure how this one got missed...

Well basically what happened is C and i signed up to volunteer at the spartan race up in Amesbury sometime in august. We got stuck in a ton of traffic on the way up and by the time we got to park we were beyond late for our assignment. There was a huge screw up on the spartan race's park by lack of direction with the volunteers and then we had decided to head up to hampton and make it a beach day and then go back the following day to help break everything down.

We really had an amazing day just hanging out by the water, laying back and relaxing. We ended the day buying some fireworks and setting them off by the beach. Before we left to head back on the 90 minute drive home, we decided to stop and get something to eat. 

I saw a place i have been before and decided it was a good idea to stop there. We stopped at Ceal's clam shack. (Now mind you i have learned now that it is never a smart idea to eat at a shack/stand with food intolerances and allergies but unfortunately this lesson i had to apparently learn the hard way.) I almost squealed with excitement when i saw a little sign that said that they had Udi's gluten free rolls. When i went to order i told the woman i was allergic to gluten and she seemed to understand and put in our order. 

I was so excited that i even took a picture.. oh the irony

My plain hamburger on a udi's roll popped out of the other order window a few minutes later and i woofed that thing down like i haven't eaten in days. Within about five minutes my stomach started to get really upset. I knew something wasn't right...

So C started driving us back and i could feel my stomach starting to wrench and twist around. WHICH FEELS AWESOME. This was seriously the worst episode i have had in the past year by far. I was sitting in his car and with each passing moment i could feel myself getting more and more sick.

Sweating, fevering from hot to cold, hot to cold.

Feeling my stomach twist and turn.

And to be honest and a tad graphic i didn't know if i was going to straight up shit myself or throw up.

The poor guy kept asking if he needed to pull over. No no...

Now keep in mind we were still doing that hang out dating sort of thing then. And lets get real no one ever wants to go into explicit detail of what their body does to "evacuate" food when you are intolerant/allergic to it.

Anyways i don't really remember much except for sitting in his car crying with my hand over my face and repeatedly apologizing for having that happen and being completely mortified. We finally got to my house and i was completely delirious at this point. Rushed into the house and pretty sure i told him i would grab all of my stuff later.

C being the super nice guy that he is sent me a text shortly after making sure that i was okay.  A few weeks after this thats when he told me that was the day that he knew he really cared about me.

Needless to say i did not end up returning the following day. I was feeling the effects for about ten days after it happened. Sick to my stomach for the following three and bloating  weight gain and brain fog for the rest.

I followed up by calling the restaurant and letting them know what had happened. I wasn't mad (although i had every right to) i was more concerned that someone with a more severe allergy could have landed in the hospital. The manager was very kind and assured me that she would be re-educating her employees on food safety. 


Moral of the story/lessons learned:

1. NEVER EAT FROM A CLAM SHACK AGAIN

2. C is a keeper.

3.Finding places to eat out is becoming increasingly impossible with my ever growing food intolerances.

4. If at any time you are not sure about the safety of your food DO NOT hesitate to talk to the waitress, manager or chef.

I was feeling pretty good during the day and made this little thing in the sand. looks pretty neat eh?

That last post was me being a negative Nancy so i'm going to try and pull things around this time haha. So things sadly have not improved much since i last wrote. 

I spoke to a few of my friends regarding my new symptoms (in which all either have AI disorders or stomach issues unknown). Recently i find that there is a disconnect from my head and my body. I know this sounds weird and bare with me while i try to explain myself the best i can. I feel as if there is no connection between the two. Any incident that happens with one does not effect the other as if they are two separate entities. Another new thing thats been happening is i feel an out of body experience and almost feel like i'm watching things happen as if i'm on auto-pilot. Anyone else out there feel that way? Not that i don't feel like i can control what i am doing in the moment just that i'm removed from the situation.

Anyways i am slowly working down my list of foods to something a bit more concrete. One saving grace is that my organic lemonade from whole foods and espalon blanco tequila makes me very happy!

I recently tried out this margarita mix with the lemonade and tequila and it was quite delicious!

So i think i am FINALLY over the carbs "hump". I feel like i no longer crave that entenmanns raspberry danish or those coffee cake slices when i go to Panera. I means its really all about the small victories anyways right?

But i do find that because of the allergies and diet that its been hard to regulate my blood sugar and i find myself crashing. For the time being there is no developments in that area sadly. So i carry about little unjunked candy bars and jolly ranchers for when i start to dip a little too low. 

So i think i am finally over losing weight now too. Its been a month and my weight is slowly creeping up. For the first time in a long time i am totally okay with this. I started to take my weight lifting a little less intense and eat more protein immediately after i work out so i don't miss the anabolic window. Theres no complaints on that because i found a Luna protein bar thats GLUTEN FREE and not to mention freakin delicious!

Lastly i went on a spur of the moment adventure with a friend to Mystic Seaport last week and got the chance to spend a day outside kayaking and checking out some cool old building in the sea port. 

We went out to eat at this amazing Vegan/Vegetarian restaurant called Kate's Cafe. I literally can't say enough. I spent the whole meal freaking out that i could literally have anything on their menu. All dairy/gluten free and whatever was made with soy was clearly labeled  I don't think people really understand how amazing it is when i go somewhere and this happened. But i seriously ate like it was my last meal. It was gluten free foccia bread, sweet potato fries, roasted red peppers and portabello mushrooms. 

PHENOMENAL. 

Oh and lastly how could i have forgotten? I signed up for a 100 mile virtual race challenge from Dirt in Your Skirt a while back. You run 100 miles from Memorial day to Labor Day. Well i did it and got a fancy belt buckle/medal to add to my growing pile!

Till next time :)

Not so Happy Birthday to Me :(

Hello everyone! First off today is my birthday and i wish i had better news to share about whats been going on. I wish i could say that i haven't been writing was because i've been so busy being happy and healthy elsewhere but sadly that is not the truth. 

All my AIP/Paleo peeps can feel me on this one..

The past couple months i have been getting worse. I gained a few pounds (165 to 168) and my health seems to be drastically declining. My sleeping patterns have become really erratic or non existent. My adrenal glands are way overactive and stressed and my thyroid is being lethargic. My sugar levels have been insanely low, along with my magnesium, calcium, iron and zinc all being in a funk. She also thinks that i may have a gene mutation called MTHFR (Methylenetetrahydrofolate Reductase) that would account for my thyroid being funky and having serious adrenal gland issues. I have been to two of my doctors over the past week and lets just say i'm tired of hearing bad news. I was in such a good mood for a long time. Happy with the insane progress i have made and the changes seemed to really be paying off in all aspects of my life.  

About three weeks ago i started to notice my sleep was getting really bad. I was consistently waking up late for work and it was clearly impacting my energy levels throughout the day when i was sleeping a shoddy four hours a night (more if i was lucky). I was going to the gym every day after work after working 12 hours three days a week and two four hour days. I feel like any time i find things start to go well my body has other plans. Can we all remember that like two seconds i had abs? That was pretty cool..

The apple cider vinegar that i was taking (which is UH-mazing for de-bloating) was now giving me sever migraines  I am now on all sorts of new medications! YAY. (i will post names and pictures later i just don't have them on me right now). Lastly i have upped my medications for the enzymes and probiotics to double aka (3 or 4 pills of enzymes every time i eat-depending on how heavy or large my meal is; 1/2 tsp probiotics twice a day).

So now here i am. On my 22nd birthday, slowly slipping back from all the progress i worked so hard for. So forgive me for bitching a bit because i am pissed. It has taken me a very long time to "come to terms" with the fact that my body does whatever it wants, whenever it wants without consulting me...and it sucks. So i'm a little bitter and pissed off today. And god forbid i actually would be able to drown my sorrows in some german chocolate cake or half baked froyo because we all know that would end in me rolling around on the ground swearing and crying.

Thank you Leaky Gut for proving that i am your bitch.

Happy birthday right?